reasons i can't sleep.

here is a video of the killers as babies in celebration of them releasing their texas tour dates. huzzah.

pink jacket and guyliner. the best.

twenty twelve review.

 

an east coast trip. my best friend's wedding. graduation. said my goodbyes. made the move to texas. celebrated twenty two. bought a car and made some friends. niki and renn wedding extravaganza. a second half marathon. got a surprise visit for friendsgiving. southern utah christmas. a farewell to 2012 with my favorite people. the last night of the year overlooking the city.

 

ya done good 2012. ya done good.

and then brandon wished me a happy new year.

momma. georgina. vegas. shopping. mgm grand. room service. cosmopolitan. sam's town. goodbye to gina. the best ninety minutes of 2012. confetti shower. encore. mr. brightside. the keyboard. the t shirts. 

a solid goodbye to the west and a year of many changes.

this is happening right now.

and there are probably definitely major tears happening to my face.

merry and bright.

miss atomic bomb.

i will shortly describe why the new killers music video is absolutely perfect and so wonderful.

1 - it is the prequel / sequel to mr. brightside.

2 - mr. brightside is my favorite song of all time.

3 - mr. brightside is my favorite music video of all time.

4 - this song and video are an extension of these favorite things.

5 - brandon's face.

perfection.

it's the most wonderful time of the year.

it's that time again, folks. that time that spreads christmas cheer because my boys are singing loud for all to hear. that's right. the seventh annual christmas single from the killers. all the proceeds of every purchase of these songs on itunes goes to (RED), the AIDS foundation. and every single single is golden.

this year they opted for a sequel to their previous christmas single from 2007, 'don't shoot me santa claus'. a classic, combining comedy and awkwardness until it becomes perfection. below are both videos. my how they have changed. and my love for them is ever growing.

ps 24 days until i get to see them in the flesh in their hometown. can't even stand it.

how can you tell.

as if my blogging, tweeting, retweeting and facebooking wasn't enough. 

there is also plenty of insta evidence of my obsession. 

my favorite shirt of all the shirts.

valentina letting me watch endless amounts of killers videos.

best email of my life.

the killers. tegan and sara. my mom. my sister. all my dreams are coming true.

a stalwart example.

i have been convincing people that brandon flowers was mormon since i was fourteen. and when he came out with his mormon video i did several fist pumps and then watched it about eight billion times. and then when anna sent me this video this week, i died. i actually died.

basically brandon gives the sweetest testimony and then stands up for the church to renowned evolutionary biologist and atheist, richard dawkins. [btw the interview is just for the first twelve minutes and then there is the performance at the end].

just a couple thoughts:

1. i love brandon.
2. he was definitely ambushed but acted extremely appropriately and classy.
3. although i don't agree with mr. dawkins and thought he was a little less polite than he could have been, i don't think he was aware that brandon wouldn't have a chance to speak for himself.
4. knowing that people live without hope or faith that our father in heaven loves and looks after them makes me sad.
5. i love brandon.

i only hope that i am able to face this kind of confrontation with the sincerity and confidence that brandon did. i think he was a great example of stalwart faith and kindly disagreeing with those with opposing views, without cowering or backing down.

awake is better than asleep.

i have been listening to battle born streaming through itunes [still can't own it until the eighteenth] and it is almost too good to be true. i am actually sad that i have to go to bed because that means i can't listen to them anymore and it might not be there in the morning. how have i made it all these years without this? and how will i last until tuesday to have it all for myself? i honestly don't know. i have so many feelings i don't know what to do with myself.

one of my favorite lines right now:


i saw you in a restaurant the other day
instead of walking toward you
i ran away

from here with me


why. why must they do this to me.

insta + killers.

basically nothing new but everything great.

a bunch of mormons hanging out at yogurtland

this is what sunday school looks like.

thought i had a cookie sheet. nope. just a pie pan. #makingdo

it is definitely possible to eat entirely too many dried mangos and it still not be enough.

pretty stained glass at a favorite local mexican restaurant.

and remember that time i posted way too many killers videos?

neither do i.

their album is coming out next week and when i saw this i may have yelped and i love brandon and he talks a lot more than usual so i watched this a few times and it's fine.

you know i will be live streaming that allllll night.

i'd actually like to stay awake through the entire month of september, thanks though.

this is only the most important month of my life. september equals labor day, all my tv shows coming back, cooler weather [maybe?], mere weeks until i see my family in utah for the wedding of the season, and, lastbutnotleastmostimportantactually, the killers are coming out with their first album in four years. 

my soul has been waiting for this for a very long time and i don't really know how it will react. wait, yes i do: pure ecstatic joy, the kind where there is so much goodness to soak in you don't even know where to start. i might cry, i will scream, and there is nothing that will be running through this girl's mind besides the lyrics that i can only imagine will throw me into a state of unadulterated euphoria.

anyway.... they have been releasing 'teaser trailers' for their upcoming album so i thought i would share the finished product that came out this week on this glorious first day of september. let the countdown begin! [haha jk i've been counting down for months.]

there are probably two people on this earth who actually understand and fully accept the love i have for brandon. one of them is anna and the other is my future husband who is somewhere around here and i have yet to meet.

listed.

yep, i am just going to continue being a terrible blogger by giving a bullet point post right now. sorry i'm not sorry. but i will definitely be catching up with posts in the near future. [promisepromisepromise.]

• if we don't all know already, my sister niki is engaged and i could not be more happy or obsessed with her future. i may have cried for half an hour when they told me. it's fine.
• this means i will be coming out to utah in october! i am so excited, i honestly think about it all the time. it is going to be party central and crazy times will be had by all.
• i signed up for a half marathon, also in october. i'm pretty excited since it's been two years [almost exactly] since my last one. and it's in downtown dallas. cool!
• kind of on that note, i decided to give up meat for a while. it's not that i am against it, it's kind of the opposite actually. i find myself eating it a lot, especially when i eat out. so i'm just going on a hiatus for an indefinite amount of time. plus it's new. new things are fun.
• also going off treats and fast food for a bit. i just figure this will help with the half training.
• you better believe i pre-ordered the killers' new album, battle born: deluxe edition. i would rather starve for a week than not have that album as soon as i possibly can. [exaggeration.] [maybe.] [no it's not.]
• currently obsessed with: 

1. joshua radin [on repeat. all. the. time.] 
2. the office [again.] [jim and pam.] [sigh.]
3. going to bed before ten
4. my gasbuddy app [it has definitely saved me time and money searching for the nearest, cheapest gas.]
5. changing all my profile pictures to the same picture. clean and nice. ah.

welp. that about sums it up. and it is 9:30 and time for bed. my 6 am runs require it. [humble brag. or fishing for compliments? meh.]

also, for those who are concerned for my health and well-being, i have bought myself some sweat resistant bug spray to protect myself from the thirsty and carnivorous mosquitos carrying west nile. fear not! i am prepared. like a boy scout.

battle born.

well. here is the music video to the killers new single 'runaways'.

to put it lightly, my heart has exploded.

i think if anything, this music video reveals the true rockstars that they have always been.

and brandon is wearing a leather jacket. so i am crying.

here is the album artwork. i'm kind of in love.

someone save me.

we can't lose.

anyone who knows me could predict this post from a mile away.

the killers came out with their first single in four years yesterday called 'runaways' and i made it my personal goal to listen to it as many times as possible while i was at work. [what is eight hours divided by four minutes? boom.] and of course, i love it.

it starts out sounding a lot like brandon flowers' 'crossfire', which makes sense since he was writing that for the killers anyway. it goes on with a hopeful feeling and then bursts into a full techno rock adventure early and keeps it up throughout the whole song.

i can see myself running to this song, blasting it in the car, or having a punch dance party for one. to put it lightly, i am obsessed and i can't wait to see what else they have in store come fall!

[seriously though. i cannot wait. this is a slow torture i can't get out of. this song is the closest thing to a cure. #onrepeat]

magic soaking my spine

lately i have felt a hole in my soul that can only be fixed by the killers, specifically their new album which isn't due out for at least six more months. recently watching them perform on the oc circa 2004 just about gave me a heart attack of joy and i also remembered it has been a year since the last time i saw brandon perform live. so, i have resorted to looking up videos and i decided to share some for your pleasure. 

bless you brandon. and your face.

the killers: boots

probably my ultimate favorite killers christmas song.

merry christmas everyone.

merry christmas to all.

it is the first day of december [what?! yes.] and what better way to kick it off than with the killers' brand new christmas single, 'the cowboy's christmas ball.' the video just came out today and i may or may not have just watched it without sound because i am in the library without headphones #truefan good thing i already listened to the song a couple days ago.

as usual, they are perfect.

why i love my leather jacket.

brandon wears leather jacket. ahlin loves brandon. ahlin loves leather jacket.

ahlin wants to have an hsm slash zac efron marathon. ahlin has a leather jacket wearing marathon instead.

everyone on vampire diaries wears a leather jacket. ere go, ahlin wears her leather jacket.

it is cold outside. leather jacket cures all.

and ahlin enjoys thinking she looks pretty bad a.
the end.

my main mormon man.

how i know i talk too much about brandon flowers slash how much i love him: when five or more people ask me if i've seen the brandon flowers 'i'm a mormon' video. these people are my true friends. 

anna is the winner for getting to me first, texting me friday night with the glorious news and then subsequently emailing me the link and discussing it with me after i watched it and freaked out in someone's house who thought i was crazy weird for screaming in their kitchen.

i heard he was making one of these about a year ago from a solid source so i was not surprised when i heard about it, just extremely ecstatic it was finally out. now i don't have to convince people that he is in fact mormon and he is in fact active. 

huzzah. 

i've always been a believer, brandon. just keep that in mind when you're looking for your number one fan.

"my name is brandon flowers. i'm a father, i'm a husband, and i'm a mormon."

kill me now.